Nadiah Alwi

Yet, don’t let it control you. Fight as hard as possible. Don’t just give up.

But, to be honest, somehow I wish I could control it. Stop things. Or, stop the time, just like a sitcom I used to watch when I was a teenager.

You know what, I even feel like I can’t control my own self — and I wish to control the world?!

Maybe, it’s because I was raised to always do things the right way, the way it’s supposed to be.

“You shouldn’t have done it like that. You must do this. It’s supposed to be done like this, not the way you did it. Etc.”

And, I wish I could have controled things today. Avoid something from happening, push one to do something. Yet, I couldn’t. So,  how did I fight all those? Simply by forgetting it — or try my best to forget it, to be exact.

There is no better way. If you can’t control the world, just let it be, let if flow. Then, forget it. Save your energy for something else, or to make your own self happy.

Probably. Don’t know. I guess so.

I’m a person who feels and thinks too much. I know, it’s killing me. But, changing is not that easy.

Hubby is an easy-going kind of person. Somehow, he has been influencing me. Yet, things are getting rough lately. So, I’m kinda back to how I was.

A friend asked me to help him find a book for his friend. A self-development book. I did help him search on the net. I couldn’t find what he was looking for. Yet, I found a book that I thought would be perfect for me.

“Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff” by Richard Carlson. Since I couldn’t get the book in an instant (right now). I googled it. And found these lines:

“The solution here is to catch yourself when you fall into your habit of insisting that things should be other than they are. Gently remind yourself that life is okay the way it is, right now. In the absence of your judgment, everything would be fine. As you begin to eliminate your need for perfection in all areas of y…our life, you’ll begin to discover the perfection in life itself.”

Oh my…exactly what I need. Not that am a perfectionist. It’s just, lately, I’ve been thinking that things should be other than they are. And, my mind would wander. Full of imagination.

After reading that particular line, I knew right away that I have fallen into the habit of insisting that things should be other than they are. And, I have to catch myself.

Hopefully, soon I can stop sweating the small stuff and live this life happily, no matter how it is.

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