Nadiah Alwi

To really be beautiful not just think that you’re beautiful or hear someone say you’re beautiful  once in a blue moon. To be beautiful like everywhere you go people say, “What do you want, beauty?” or “You always look pretty no matter what you wear…” or things like that.

I really want to know. Does it make you feel superior? Or, simply happy about it ‘coz it eases your life, somehow? Or, you wish you look just like other girl? Yeah, right!

And, no, I’m not beautiful. And, yes, I sometimes can look pretty. But, not like the first time people look at me, they would think, “Damn, this girl is pretty!” No. Even if at the end they say, “She’s pretty enough,” it needs like a few minutes before they realize it.

So, don’t laugh or, worse, feel sorry for me for asking the question I currently use as the tittle of this post. ‘Coz, it simply comes out of my curiousity. You know, curiousity kills the cat. If it seems like I’m pointing a gun at my own head by asking the question, well…you see it the wrong way.

Anyone got an answer?